Weekend is near!

Ada this one sahabat of mine, used to be room mate back in shah alam. Now, she's in Kelantan. Kekadang aku ni, being human, akan mengeluh, especially bila aku penat or bila aku lapar tp mlas nk mkn or bila aku PMS xtentu masa. (sila sepak lelaju ye)

She keeps reminding me that ujian, seberat mana pun, is a sign of love from Him. Kena bersyukur. What doesnt kill you makes you stronger. Aku mengeluh bila aku xberjaya nk convince boss aku yg aku tgh buat keje aku ni. Aku mengeluh bila aku berkejar2 cari masa nk buat assignment aku, aku mengeluh bila aku rasa bdn aku naik. seems extremely petty kan?

But, sekarang aku noticed, tu semua buktikan yang aku sgt beruntung. Sekurang2 nya aku bekerja, sekurang2nya aku diberi kesempatan utk belajar n sekurang2nya aku ada rezeki utk mkn..Aku sedang merasa what is like bila aku xberjaya cari kerja, nk study beli buku pn xde duit, nk mkn pn bercatu..Again, hamba Allah ni mengeluh lagi..

Semalam petang, aku dpt bercakap dgn sahabat aku yg sorg ni. Cerita kat dia psal adik aku kawen, pasal life aku sekrang, tnya psal life dia, tesis dia, family dia semua. Aku agak merindui la gak presence dia as my friend and sister (note: aku xde adik pompuan). Sembang psal waffling, psal infinite, psal poster yg dia tinggal..mcm2..last2, dia msg kt aku: Sabar je jess..Ujian pn rezeki..May Allah ease your burden..

There is always light at the end of the tunnel if you believe in it. Kenapa aku ckp mcmtu? Sbb klau korg rasa hidup korg ni akan gelap smpai bila2, it will. Sebab tu yg korg percaya. Aku xpernah serik dgn family, kengkawan or love life aku. I always believe yg aku akn jmpe Mr Right, aku boleh find balance in life, balance in time utk family n kengkawan aku, even bila aku kna struggle..

Aku happy yg aku belajar balik, family aku ok, kengkawan aku still sayangkan aku n aku jumpe someone to spend the rest of my life with. Aku super bersyukur dgn kehadiran korg..This week has been harsh and hard, but thanks to all of you, i have a weekend to look forward to..and aku berjaya ckp kat diri sendiri: Deep breaths jess, all will be fine..The storm will stop and the sun will shine..just sabar..Ujian ni hadiah dr Dia.

Happy coming weekend guys..

Bukan la nak vent out, but just to share

Lama la gak xhapdet blog ni..Bz skit kat opis.

Walaupun xramai yg mengikuti blog ni, i just dont care, nak gak cite! (hihihi)

First:

Saya ni bukan la nk berkira kerja sgt. Kn sama2 keje..xyah la nk kira2 sgt. Ko backup aku, aku backup ko. That was what i did in my previous jobs. N it works. kitorg keje happy2 je. Misunderstandings is so biasa. Manusia ni, rmbut sama la gak kalernye, but hati, very different, you see.
Aku xde la kisah sgt buat kerja sementara yg lain tgh bz buat authority work. Ye, aku kerani je kat sini. Jadi, mmg tugas aku utk provide support. Tp, please ah..jgn la buat aku cm kuli and jgn treat aku cm org yg buta tuli. While aku mmg duk kt department korg, aku still kna report misconduct to HR (xbest kna jd whistle blower ni). Korg pn bkn la xkn sold me the moment u guys have the chance kn..Like u guys already did..Tapi xpela..aku sebenarnya enjoy je buat keje aku even kna maki hamun dgn public (chill pill have been taken on a daily dosage as per directed: RUNNING)

Second:

Ni psal someone i used to know. This also serves a personal reminder. HUTANG. betul..aku tau aku ada hutang dgn kawan2, family aku semua. N aku vow utk setel semua hutang,termasuk la yg kt tmpat2 lain tu by tgh thn next year. Starting the closest one to me: my sisters and friend. They deserve their money back. And aku seyesly mintak maaf pada semua yg aku offend psal hutang and duit ni. Kalau psl mkn minum, klau korg rasa, aku ada mkn dgn korg and blum bayar my share, igtkan please..Aku ni bkn memory cm Einsten sgt pn..(takut sgt klau korg xhalalkan)

He owes me a lot. and everytime mintak, sure dia akan kata, jgn nk berkira sgt. Look, like in my FB post, aku bkn jenis yg berkira pd org. Especially, org yg rapat dgn aku. So, bila ayat ko pada aku is nnti i byr balik or bila sy gaji/keje, sy byr blk or awk byr dulu, nnti sy bg balik kat awk, SILA PASTIKAN U HONOR THOSE WORDS. Ko hutang aku bkn sikit klau ikutkan..klau ungkit, mmg xterbayar. Makan or minum, mak aku da ajar, jgn nk ungkit..tu rezeki dia jugak..xpe kita share. But, duit beli moto yg ko usung ke hulu ke hilir, saman yg ko dpt BEFORE ko dgn aku, duit moto kedua, mcm2 lagi..Awak tu lelaki. Sila paham2 sendiri.


Summary:

Aku sdg mnghadapi a very difficult week..ada problem, tp xleh nk share. Nnti kang org kata aku drama lebih..so aku snyap..so ni la jadi nyer